gerardsgirlxx's Journals on Buzznet http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Give it a name 2009 london islington academy]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/3972851/ In this moment, and Versaemerge were so beyond amazin on thursday night! loved it so much lights and whole wheat bread where dare i say it shittttt! But it was such and awesome night and i recomend the first two bands to anyone but people i dont like listen to lights mwhaha cos they suck !

I met all of in this moment they are really nice and most of VersaEmerge and Whole wheat bread are ass holes i asked 4 a pic and they walked off ! wankers but i met Maria from in this moment so it made up for it haha

Keep rockinnn !

]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2009-04-12T09:25:00Z <![CDATA[Any news if gerards havin a boy or a girl ?]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/3841461/ Please tell me if u know

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]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2009-03-08T09:38:00Z <![CDATA[I'm sick of this life i just wanna scream! How could this happen 2 me ?]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/3461961/ I'm sick and tired of the same god damn thing happening all the time, whatever i do, whatever i say im scremed. I just cant take things at home anymore. Each day gets worse and worse and it makin me ill, im sick of the arguing, im sick being put down and told im worthless. I'm dreadin christmas cos it means just another excuse for me 2 be ripped apart.

Im controlled like a character on a game, restricted to a limited amount of space, told what to do and when to do it. And I've had enough.  My outbursts of anger are being caused by this and i hate being like it but im driven to it.  What the hell hav i done so wrong to be treated like this ? Cos iv had enough.

Im a happy person, very happy but these days im strugglin 2 smile and i hate it so much. I'm in love i have kick ass friends..... but then i go home and things are shit again!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i just wanna screeeeeaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmm!

:'(

]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-12-04T10:01:00Z <![CDATA[Gerard way is gonna be a daddy ?]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/3432531/ Is he or isn't he ?

Care 2 shed some light people ?

If so he would make an awesome dad :)

xxxxxxx

]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-11-27T10:51:00Z <![CDATA[cowards that hide behind there words, dont care who feelings get hurt....]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2980761/ Why is it every single person iv ever been friends with always finds different was to hurt me or let me down? It's happened all my life i shoud be used to it by now, but still each time it happens it hurts more and more. Im being lyed 2, people are being turned against me, and people are expecting me 2 apologise 4 things i haven't even done. Don't get me wrong im not totally alone i stilll have the bestest thing that cud of ever happened 2 me.  And matt i dont know how i would get thru anything without u, and the handful of friends i can actually trust.

Im just sick and tired of this happening

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]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-09-07T05:35:00Z <![CDATA[A little note 2 mi buddies in Gran canaria]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2944461/ Laura (pizza)- U r the most nicest and coolset girl i have ever met! from the moment we started talking we clicked. We have so much in common and only after what a week 2geva i hope we stay friends for a long time! U r so funni! Takin the piss out of goofy and horny germans was so fun! hope ill see you soon ! I wudv spent the last week on mi own if it wernt 4 u ! love u xxxxx

James (Joe Kool)- Awwww mr preety boy, u r fuckin hilarious! weneva i was feelin down on holiday u were rite there 2 pick me back up! We had such fun killling eachother in the pool and throwin sand at eachother and insulting goofy. Im glad i met u, i really am! And i hope we stay in touch 4 a long tym! love u ! xxxxx

Richard (Dirty devil)- U r the funniest person i hav ever met! no joke! runnin on sunbeds and falling, crackin open coconuts, dancing and sayin sum random shit! u made mi tym there so enjoyable! U rock dude hope we stay in touch ! back off u dirty devil take 5 ! love u xxxx

Kayleigh and mollie- Gurls u r hilarious! U r soooo like twins but the pair of u r awesome ! I didnt know u as long as the uvas but we bonded really well. Kayleigh u sooo remind me of phoebe frm friends and abby frm mi family ! hope we stay in touch love u! xxxx

Vanessa- Girl u r so sweet and kind, u were so nice wen i first met u and u always were! We could talk 4 ages about such random shit like hollyoaks or chavs and laugh so much. I wish u cud of stayed at least till i went it wudv rocked wif u there 4 mi last couple of days! U give the bestest advise eva and i will always take it cos u rock! love u xxxx

]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-08-31T05:23:00Z <![CDATA[A note to my amazin closest friends]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2353941/ Joe Tidey - You have been one of mi best friend since year 7 and you've always been there 4 me, thru thick and thin. You were there when i needed a shoulder to cry on, when i needed cheerin up and just to listen 2 me moan, cry, laugh and obsess about matt. (I talk about him a lot!). And i know whatever i tell u wont go any further, u r such an awesome guy and by far 1 of mi bestest friends 4 sure! U always make me smile again n im sooo greatful. U make me cry bein sweet n ur jus a fukin legend !!! xxx

Mitch- Again another 1 iv known since year 7. U r 1 of the weirdest n randomest people iv ever met but u r such a legend. U sort out mi problems and make me smile wen i need it the most, ur also always there if i need a should 2 cry on, or a hug. Uv seen things iv been thru and helpd me thru so thank u. Just 4 listenin and i know i annoy the fuck out of u tlkn about how much i am in love with matt, but u still neva tell me 2 shut up! Its amazin! I hope iv been there 4 u wen u needed me 2! U rock and ur an awesome song writer! xxx

Alex- 4 years iv known u, and not once have u let me down. uv told me 2 be strong at times wen i know i cudnt and made me see i can get thru things. I tell u things and i know they wont go no further, and wen i do we can relate 2 eachother and help eachother! Ur fuckin hilarious! So weird! but in a wonderful way! And u look hot in make up lol ;) u n mitch looked hot at mi party lol xxx

LynZ- we havn't met yet, i met u thru buzz and iv been tlkn 2 u 4 lyk a year and on msn and hopefully we will meet in august !! Everytime im scared, have doubts, problems or just need cheerin up ur always there 2 cheer me up! U r a fukin legend!! U share my evil thought about midgets and chavs!!! I know iv also been there 4 u wen u needed it and u sooo have returned the favour, everytime i tell u about sumit bad u always make me see the light at the end of the tunnel. And i realy appreciate that. Luvooo hope we meet soon xxx

Ryan D- Dude 1 word legend! U r soooo funni, especially in art wen u call miss copeland a dyke! Ooooh chukkle worthy!! lolz I know i can cum 2 u wif mi problems and i know it wont go any further. I dont know u that well as we have onli been hangin 2geva a little while but i hope we stay m8s 4 a long tym cos i need u 2 cheer me up dudeeeeeeee! xxx

Kate- U r by far the most wonderfully weird person i have ever met! Without u damn business wud be sooo borin! u make me laugh til i cry bein so random and ur helpin me plot mi revenge to mi toss pot father lolz! Ur always there with sum kick ass advise and i duno where id be wifout sum of it rite now! And mi bigen mark is biga thatn ursssss xxx

These r da people that hav touched mi life the most so i thought id write sumit 4 them =)

And matt i didnt 4get u btw u hav a whole blog 4 u soooo u know how much i fuckin love u!!!! xxxxxxxxx

 

 

]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-05-14T10:22:00Z <![CDATA[To matt]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2162381/ I know i've said it before but i can't believe how lucky i am 2 have found you! You mean so much 2 me i can't even explain it in words, i love u with all mi heart and i can't imagine my life without u! When I'm with you everything falls into place, u make me laugh and even cry when u say sweet things. And i can honestly say i don't think I've ever been this happy in all mi life! Your gorgeous, sweet, funni, thoughtful and amazin and i love u more than anyone !!!! Even more than MCR :0. When I'm upset u make everythin better and make all my problems disapear, everythin is so perfect when i'm with u!!! But when we're apart it's like fuckin torture !! I hate it so much, its like half of me is missen but when i see you everythin is okay again!!! Before you come along i had huge problems, i was so miserable and i really couldn't find a reason to keep on going. But now i have you i do, i have that reason to get up in the morning, a reason to smile, a reason to live.

I love everything about you, i love ur smile, ur giggle, ur eyes, ur kisses, ur ass he he , the way you always check ur reflection in car windows, or scream at bumble bees. The way we instantly laugh at the same tym wen sum 1 says sumit rude. U make me laugh so much until i cry, or ul make me cry bein da sweetest guy in the world. The things u say 2 me so much and i really dunno wot da fuck ive dun 2 deseve u but it must've been good. I hope we last for a really long time. I know it will because there is nothing that could stop me loving u! Nothing at all.

And i know i have mi paranoid moments where i fink im gonna loose u and im sorry, im just so terrefied of it, ur the most important thing in the world 2 me and if i lost that id probably chuck myself off of a building. Life wifout u wud b fukin pointless so im so glad that i hav u in mine. We share sumthin so rare and so special and i never want it 2 end, i mean we're even finnishen eachovas sentences now, and we always laugh at da same fings. Call me stupid 4 sayin this but i fink sum 1 is lookin out 4 me, and they made me find u. Yes i believe in fate lolz. And love at first sight. Well sayin that i hated u b4 lolz, but not now no way lolz. But i honestly cant believ how lucky i ammmm!

We've had our little rows, granted, but we've shown the interfearin basderds that we r strong, and that we can pull through anything together. uv hepld me thru sum realy hard tym over the past couple of months with mi dad. And i really dunno how i wudv got thru it wifout u, u made me see that i shud stay strong and focus on u, the greatest thing in mi life. I see other couple who are close to us fallin apart and i realise how fortunate i really am, we have trust, closeness, and love. Something that they don't and that is why we make such a good couple.

I have honestly never felt like this about anyone before and it feels so awesome 2 know that ur always going 2 be there 4 me. And i dunno how i spent 3 and half years not havin u in mi life, because now it is so much beta now ur in it!!! Love u 4eva matt U make mi life have a meaning! Thank yooo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-04-09T11:13:00Z <![CDATA[Get over it already]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/2021901/ God stupid ex boyfriend! He's refusin 2 be mates with me since i'm goin out with the guy i fancied. I mean I can't help who I fall for. Matt cares about me way more than he ever did. He helps me when i fell down. And makes me soooo happy. I mean what the fuck is wrong with that??? So what if i went out with him after dumpin sean (ex), I don't give a flyin fuck what he feels, and no what we had was sooooooo not love. Thats where 2 people have 2 feel the same way and i definetly didnt. He only wanted one thing and when he couldnt get it he go peed off.

 

Anyways Matt I love You my perfect boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!! =)

]]> Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-03-19T10:45:00Z <![CDATA[Fukkkk!!!]]> http://gerardsgirlxx.buzznet.com/user/journal/1996591/ Buzznet gerardsgirlxx 2008-03-15T13:13:00Z